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whatever. my old ones treat me like crap now adays. its like one thing after another from a different person each time and I'm not going to keep forgiving. And I am not going to keep letting it go. Why the hell can't we be honest with eachother. If things keep up like this...I don't want to keep in contact with anyone once I get out of college. And I don't want to be considered a close friend or even a friend when you'd rather be someone else. or when you act fake, thats just shit.
However, I am glad that neville and I have the same lunch this year because we have become much closer, but at the same time I have grown a lil more distant from mcd, miller, skolnik, and many others, which is depressing. :(
OMG, I saw dustin and nick today (for all of two minutes but still). I haven't seen them in...a gazillion years! hahaha
I think I saw angie's dad in a store today....I'm not sure though. it may have been someone else, but it was def. somebody's dad whose from nd.
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I feel like crap. and I have just gone into super paranoid mode. For one thing, I am def. disconnected from the world because I hardly have time to do anything. I feel like people do things to mean just to make me feel bad/mad. Or don't tell me things because they'd rather leave me out. Anywayz
Brittany Chalk is the person of the week (I new thing I am starting hahaha because I don't think people get enough recognition!). She has always made me feel better when I am down. She has a smile on her face all the time, which just makes you feel better. Plus she takes the time to listen and rationalize things when others aren't being...rational. And she is just plain hilarious! If anyone has anything else good to say about Brittany Chalk speaaak now! :)
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Junior year has been amazing and hectic at the same time. But I feel like I am growing apart from those that I was close with. :( and its only been two weeks. I miss my classes last year and the people and the great times. And now this year I am in a whole new setting, and its really weird. Anyways. That's it. byyeeeeeeeeeee
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[08 Jul 2005|09:26pm] |
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I'm updating because I haven't in awhile. This summer has been pretty great so far, met a lot of cool new people, watched a lotta movies, and just relaxed. I haven't even looked at the pre-calc book, and I don't think I am planning to (not feeling that nerdy :)
I can't wait to go California and then Europe, but i'll miss stroudsburg....a tiny bit hahaha.
I got my glasses...heh its been like two months since my last pair broke (very inconvenient, i must add).
right now I am pretty bored
post and tell me all about your wonderful summer vacations so far!!
esp. the lucky people who just came back from germany! haha
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la la laaalala...the last couple of days have been fun. On friday I went bowling and got a 21 the first game, but amanda changed it to a 300 lmao. Our "team" me, ashley and kaitlyn lost against joey jet and emily, and of course joey and jet rubbed it in, but the next game we beat them with help from amanda. we def. rubbed it in at that point. then on saturday i helped out at my dad's motel, which was extremely boring. sunday me and my brother took my dad out to a movie (batman begins) and then dinner for father's day. and tooodaay was my first day back at the hospital to volunteer. at first I forgot where everything was, but I got used to it. Also met some cool people, which is always nice. and now I am watching t.v....which is pretty much how I spend my summer days!
peace
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today was fun. it was jess' b-day we had dinner at ruby tuesday's then watched mr. and mrs. smith. It was the second time for me, and I found soo many mistakes in it, but it was still great. then we went took a pitstop to walmart to find emma some socks for bowling. then we went to the bowling alley....too bad they closed early today for some odd reason so we played pool instead. I got lucky and got one in my first shot. But heather and jessica were the two that could actually play haha. It was a ton of fun aaannnd HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESS!!!!! AND ERIN!!! (even though it was yesterday, which was another great day of just hangin around with friends.
soo yea jonny needs to stop gettin hurt, otherwise he will be dead soon!!
aaaahh I realized today that all of us think sooo much alike and that's probably why we are all such good friends!
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I don't understand how some people can do things and not have a guilty conscience. How they can cheat and lie as if they are doing absolutely nothing wrong. And then when...IF they get caught...they wonder...why is MY LIFE SO BAD...what have I ever done!? *smacks head*
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Have you ever just wanted to do something out of the ordinary or just uncalled for like i don't know...randomly get up in class and sing a song. Or during an assembly...throw something just to see what happens. I even sometimes hope someone did something like that in school just for a change. Nothing serious and no one getting harmed or anything just something different. ah I'm tired..I have to get to the highschool at 8 tomorrow, which is just ridiculous. Erg, I hate having to wake up early on days when I have off. And I haven't done ANY of my homework....including that lab or studying for my history test (which usually I can just study for during lunch...but this one is two chapters!)
Nilam is home. Now Parin can have some social contact instead of the gopher and raccoon and whatever else that lives outside our house.
ok well that's about all I have to say
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[25 May 2005|04:22pm] |
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needed a day off. so I took it.
stopped overanalyzing life, and decided to just live it.
^made life a lot less stressing, dani was very right
I want summer to start, but I don't want to lose contact with my friends
Erin is right. just because people are quiet doesn't mean anything. they just feel like being quiet.
it only takes one of these two things to be my friend: think albinos are cool and/or have a name beginning with the letter a-z
I admire people who can live their life, and not care what the world thinks of them.
no one is truly mean at heart. it just takes longer to realize that about some people than others
thank you everyone who was always there for me when I needed it the most.
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a-z PLUS jonny! lmao
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Life is so confusing, so unorganized, so fake. And I always wonder where I will be ten years from now, who will I know ten years from now. Why do/should I even care now, when its all going to change anyway. Life is about change, right? I wish I could just write every thought down, holding nothing back. Its just people don't take the time to understand, so I never could. Sometimes I do just say random things, at random times and getting weird looks. I say I don't care, even though anyone close enough to me, knows that I am just a kid filled with insecurity-- about to explode at any moment. But the reason I am always insecure is because no one is completely honest with me, so I don't know what they are thinking. I shouldn't really care either way, but I don't think its fair to judge someone when you don't evne know them. Or be mean to people that have done nothing wrong to you. And I hate that I get so consumed by that notion, that I waste away thinking about it. And I hate that I automatically assume a person hates me in like two seconds. Its weird, I even think my friends secretly hate me, which I have told them about and they just laughed it off. I feel like my mind is just a mess, all these things floating around my head.
I have two different sides to me. Like I am loud and try to talk to and be nice to people, but really on the inside, I am thinking-- let me just get through this day without doing something stupid. I am hoping something great will be over as soon as possible so it doesn't have time to be spoiled. Like when I have a great day. I am like JUST END NOW. Before something bad happens. Instead of thinking, man I hope this goes on forever.
In conclusion, this entry was seriously a waste of time. hahahaha. hhmm soo I went to dorney friday. It was alright, cept it rained and then became sunny just a bit before we had to leave. I watched star wars this weekend, i thought i was great. We rented elecktra (sp?), which at least I thought, totally stunk. and I also watched blade trinity, which was pretty good (or maybe it was because the first movie was a;fhgkjdfkhj horrible). I need to do make up work. I am such a boring person. Like really. why do people talk to me. Alright well that's about it, CAN'T WAIT TIL SUMMER VACATION!!!! YEEESSSS. and i hope the seniors have a lovely graduation.
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baseball game, relay for life, bluez brothers...great day yesterday hangin with my homies. hahaha
Keep it real
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I think the more I analyze--the more I get confused. Like I feel like I know a person, but then they just complete suprise. You are just enlightened to a whole other life of theirs that you never knew about, or maybe I just never take the chance to find that out? idk....no more thinking...summer is coming soon, and I am fed up with about everything about school except the people in it.
Today was a rather....boring day. I was really upset. I kept thinking that it was friday....I almost cried coming into school realizing that it was really only a thursday!!! Physics--we did nothing cept those stupid "If you had..." this time it was if you had one wish what would it be. Honestly anything that I would really wanna say would be to corny to say. I ended up saying to be able to read other peoples' minds with no precautions. That would be great. You find out so much about the person, and what they are really think. The one thing I hate is when--people say one thing, but are thinking another. I am very honest with things, and if I say it, its what I am thinking, which people may not like at times, but the truth can never be more damaging than a lie. Anywayz...we played pickleball in gym--jonny--fuckyou-- hahahahaha I have been really mean to him the whole day :)
chemistry- quiz
lunch was great as usual. and amber's journal entry to me made my day, really it did. thanx
geometry- made a fool of myself cuz I was volunteered to go do a problem, even though I didn't know how since I copied off of jon who had just looked at the back of the book. carol tried to help me stall, which i am thankful for even though it didn't work. haha
class officer speeches- all of them were very good. I thought I knew somewhat who I was going to vote for, but now I am back to ground zero. All of them worked really hard this year. soooo who knows
then since batt is my ninth period teacher, most of us just ended up watching the class officer speeches for the juniors. very well done as well
I can't remember anything else from the day. I can't wait for bluez brothers tomorrow, and of course hangin with jaderade!
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soooo I decided to update. What a great thing. But I can tell its going to be a random post.
mr. freeman wasn't here today. YES and mr. houston was our sub. he was hilarious. we played pickle ball?? i think that was the name in gym today. it was decently fun. I don't know if decently is a word. tech. concepts was actually not all that bad since we don't have to write notes hahaha. we got in a circle for history to discuss a chapter. too bad i wasn't there yesterday. geometry was cool, esp. since I can't remember what happened in it. lance made french extremely interesting. english- people presented projects and both groups had their shining moments. i don't want to do ours cuz well I am supposed to be gangsta hamlet and all this shniz. and i guess i am doomed anyway since its already filmed and katelyn is editing at this very moment. sooooo skgjkfgj. I can't wait til bluez brothers. I hate awkward moments. I hate when someone reads your journal and are like wow this person is such a loser. and i could say that wouldn't bother me. but it would. I hate when I stumble with words and end up sounding stupid. I love breaking the tab thingies of my can of ice tea during lunch, and the wonderful conversations I get into with jess, amber, jade, heather and ali. I love how I am going to choose between which i guy I will marry if they both have the same name or their last names start with the same letter lmao. my priorities are completely in order. I think its great how only like 9 people know what I am actually talking about, and anyone else thinks I am stupid. i don't know what I am babbling on about either. I hate long journal entries because I know whenever I see a long entry I never read it. hahahaha oh well. well I should get back to not doing my homework.
and finally i want summer vacation to begin because I am just about fed up with school in general dfjgklfsh;jkshajk *sigh*
leave comments.
if you actually read any of that.
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Toooddaaay was a lonng day. Physics: boring gym: floor hockey chemistry: got quizzes back 96 and 80 lol and I am actually happy about that! tech. dkgjdfhk; lunch: wrote history essay history: test geometry: math stuff and helped someone cheat lmao french: I dislike ms. corvaline (or however you spell it) she wouldn't let me, emily, and michele go to the band room. blech. english: Hamlet. best part- when everyone dies hehe. I realized that what I say actually has an effect on people even IF it was from A YEAR AGO!!!! sorry steve. not really. hahahahaha
then went to the baseball game with jade, and got some good shots of people giving stupid faces or other stupid stuff (too bad she deleted some of them!) check her journal out for that. We had to leave as the 2nd inning started sooo that stunk. got picked up late as usual. then had med. explorers thing, which was actually kinda interesting cept only three of us were there.
one of the guys knew me because of tim. too bad I couldn't remember this cuz I am horrible with faces. oh well. he was asian, which was mega cool
hahahahaha
I have a chem. test tomorrow
and I think I am going to study....tomorrow
wow this journal was very scattered-ish
how wonderful.
states in two days. very cool. missing two days of school. sweet
*Peace In*
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ALright well today was a pretty good day--seeing as how I think i flunked two yes TWO chem. quizzes in one day, and really didn't care. Lunch was great especially because of the awesome picture jade gave me. I loved it...no I wuved it hahahahaha. I think I lost the dollar that me and amber had a competition about back and forth. I think i will get a new one and maybe she won't notice ; ) (too bad she may read this soooo hahahah) Anywayz, history, geometry all the same. French was fun. I was a stupid project due sometime next week, and we have like none of the things yet. And I just remember today that in english I also have a project due next week. I wanted to do something this weekend, and like have fun. Plus, I wanted to go to ashley's movie night thing (if she is still havin it). *sigh* school stinks. S.O. states is thurs. and friday. wooot I am ready for zero of my events, but again I could care less. Compute this was tossed onto me because none of the other bums wanted it. lol. I will actually take a look at it though sometime throughout the week.
This entry was not really split up. I know I hate reading entries that are long and one big block. So I end up just not reading it. Is that just me, or do others do the same?? hahaha. Alrightio i think thats it
NO WAIT!!! hahahahahahahaha neil broke mr. freeman's mug. It was the funniest story ever, but I feel really bad for everyone. For neil, cuz he didn't mean to, for freeman cuz he really liked the mug, and for me and his other chem. students cuz he is gonna be cranky tomorrow!!
Well now I think that's it.
I feel like posing a really random but yet insightful question. But I can't think of one. If you can, post it and I will take it as my own. hahaha
I am in a random mood. I wonder if someone who just doesn't know me ever reads this, and are like this person is psycho. I know I would think so
gjdlfgj!!! bye
Peace In
twidiot *smacks face* I am such a...
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[23 Apr 2005|09:15pm] |
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Today was fun. We (me, lizzy, miller, miller lite, sam, meghan, ashley, erin, and amanda)went bowling. I once again proved an already known fact. I am not good at bowling, but it is a ton of fun. Best bowlers: lizzy, amanda, and erin. Best bowling technique: meghan and kaitlyn (kerplunk) haha-- In my opinion at least. We played two games of that shizniz and then went off to friendly's (meghan couldn't come though). Once arriving, ashley and I had a tramatizing moment, in which we thought we got struck by lightning and I thought something had fallen on her car. Needless to say, we raaaan to the entrance, to avoid...any..injuries. (her dad called us wusses) lol. Anywayz we ate, and then....I saw people coming out singing happy birthday. I was wondering whose b-day it was. I started to look around and then I noticed everyone was staring at me. Thanx you guys, it was one of the best "birthdays" ever hahahahaha. In conclusion, my friends are the cooooooolesssttt, and we have to ALL hang out more often.
On another note, my phone was broken, so we sent it in. It took them two weeks to send it back and tell us they couldn't fix it. Now they are saying it will cost 53 to replace, which is fine, but this extended warrenty we had gotten was 60 dollars, and really had proven itself wwoooorrrrthhhlesss. I mean why the heck did we spend 60 bucks for the to "fix" things when they say they can't and now I have to spend 53 to replace it???? ggrrrrrklsdjglk;dfsjglk:J!!!
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Have you ever been in such a bad mood, and then *poof* you aren't anymore?
I thought about all the things that I love and that make me happy, and then I realized the stuff I was mad about wasn't worth being mad about. I was being lame. hahah I think I was just sick of school soo yea.
Actually this year has been great, and I am kinda sad that it's going to end!!
*sigh* maybe next year will be better
Alright so I am listening to rap music for some odd reason. meh.
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1st- mad- I don't trust anyone with secrets
2nd- clutzy- I hate volleyball
3rd- nervous- chem. final need I say more
4th- boring- tech concepts NEED I SAY MORE?
5th- weird- that's usual
6th- horrifying- watching a guy get shot in the head- not funny
7th- content- i was only there for...10 minutes
s.s- blind- my glasses broke and the lens popped out
s.o.- maaad- doney can go f*** himself cuz he is always really mean to me
i hate being made fun of and i hate when people can't keep little secrets because that means there is no way they can keep big ones
The only good thing today was that joey told me that if he could find a place to stay he would be coming back up next year. Everything else pretty much stunk.
I need a new life
don't comment if you have nothing nice to say, because I am not in the mood to hear it.
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[18 Apr 2005|05:37pm] |
Rutgers Model Congress was awesome
Stroudsburg is boring
I can't wait to leaaaave!
that's all there is to it.
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Eerrrrrg I hate when I wait til last minute to do my homework, sgkdjgksjgksjfkjsfksjg
I still have to finish this lab, study for history, study for disease detectives, edit my reseach paper, and then the little bits of homework that I still have to do. And of couse its such a nice day outside, and I am stuck doing homework. great.
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